Some people define strength by the things a person can physically handle but what about the mental capabilities? What about when you can handle everyone else’s judgement and stand on your own? When the smile on your face is to please everyone else but you know it’s not real? When your heart is yearning for it but you let it go? Don’t tell me that’s not strength. In this world we are destined to go through things that will challenge our strengths, physical and mental. We are encouraged to stand tall and defeat our weaknesses but the pressure isn’t always enough. You meet this one person and you’re honestly into everything they represent. They give your days a sense of meaning and being with them is like finally getting to know yourself. They’re your ticket to happiness because you needed the extra push when you couldn’t do it yourself. You make a mistake… It’s a big one… In a flash, they don’t want you anymore. My heart is crumbling, my eyes are a reflection of an ocean before them. I’m in pain, it’s physical. No matter what’s going on in my life, my health, my environment,
I’ll miss you. You’ve been my angel in the darkness and the one person I could never be without. He’ll probably never read this but you all will. Take this to mind when you’re facing difficult decisions and situations that may seem impossible to overcome. Be your own strength and smile because even in weakness it’s a great way to show strength. I’m here for your thoughts, any inquiries to my email on about me page. Thank you for reading, hope you’re all having a great start to this new year. 😉
2014 in review
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 520 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 9 trips to carry that many people.
If I were a poet…
If I were a poet, I’d find the sweetest words to write.
If I were a poet, I’d compare our love to the stars because they’re infinite.
If I were a poet, I’d write you a stanza each time we kiss with my lips on yours.
If I were a poet, I’d tell you the words to make being apart a little easier.
But unfortunately, I’m not a poet.
But I know three words that are always true, I love you.
I need to make this a habit..
I have a hard time coming on here… I don’t know why and I’m never quite sure… Instead I’m sitting here watching people throw rifles and staring at my monkey looking, suprise having, not telling me boyfriend that hates meeee. He’ll see this later I’m sure. Have a great day!.
Wrong… Somewhere, somehow.
I hate sitting here. I’m with tears in my eyes because I don’t know what I’m doing wrong anymore. I’m trying extremely hard to learn from my mistakes, to change the things that need to change, and to be there for myself above all. I’m so in between crying and just shutting down. I don’t know what a natural emotion is because I don’t think what’s happening to me is okay. I used to think telling my best friend would make it better but now it’s just another burn to add to row of burns across my soul.
I’m sorry
I’m sorry that I haven’t been writing much at all. I just wanted to thank you all so much for continuing to visit and seeing my stats reach an all time high made my day. I’m currently sick and missing school because I have a competition on Saturday that I can’t afford to miss. I hope that you all continue to support me because seeing that people actually read what I write and like it, makes it all worth getting through the day. I’m proof that things do get better and that there’s a way a solution to a problem even if that problem seems to last a lifetime. There’s always a way around the challenges we face in life and we wouldn’t have them thrown in our paths if we weren’t strong enough to face them. I believe that we are more powerful than our minds allow us to believe sometimes. But we must always be tougher than life and never surrender to the little things because we will always get through them. Once again, thank you for all your support. See you soon (: till then, live a majestic life.
New Post! it only took Forever!
Hey. I know I’ve been letting some of the people that read me daily down. But I wanted to inform you of a couple things that have happened that I’m pretty happy about. For one, I have made a lot more friends, I’ve lost a healthy amount of weight, and I even got myself a new best friend and boyfriend. Honestly, being a teenager right now isn’t too bad. It’s bearable. People talk about how easy we have it but they don’t focus on our struggles like how, going to college doesn’t guarantee us a job anymore or even how much school has become a competition rather than a fun way to be social. Let’s not even talk about being in college, what about getting there?! It’s going to be a huge leap and it’s going to rip a permanent hole in my bank account if I don’t get a scholarship. Let me know if you agree, for now, I’ll try to write tomorrow. See you later majestic creatures 😉
Soon
Back to a time when all was clear.
I’d whisper to you softly my dear.
Although the past must go unchanged.
My love for you has yet to fade.
In the darkest dreams.
Nothing’s as it seems.
You and I have yet to weather.
One day we’ll soon be together.
And in the nights we fall asleep,
My heart yearns for you so very deep.
I wish it were me…
I see you and all I want to do is smile.
Look into your eyes for a while.
All I’d want to do is cuddle while you make my heart melt into a puddle.
I’d wink, you’d laugh, my other half.
I see your potential in all you do.
If I could just be next to you…
I know you don’t want me.
You want her… If only you could concur.
My hearts been yours since day one.
If only I’d noticed and hadn’t been so numb.
You’ve taken my old broken dreams and mended them, sewing the seams.
For when you look into the eyes of another, I hope you’ll remember that we still have each other.
When the night is cold and dark,
It’s a reminder of how we’re far apart. Even with the distance between,
With you, forever and always is what I mean.
Him
When I finally thought my heart could never find another, it did. Just as they all said it would. What really torments me… Is how it’s chosen the one person I cannot have. Someone whose mesmerized me completely with the most amazing eyes, the most breathtaking smile, and a voice that sends shivers down my spine as he speaks. He gives me a reason to smile. Although, I wish he’d see me the same. I’m working on it. I’m not about to let the one person who’s brought me back to life, slip through my finger tips just yet.
Stagnent Mind 