I feel like a bomb set into the world.. Nothing I do or could ever will amount to good enough. Not for you. I am sick. I am cold. I just want your smile, your hope, your absolute serenity in your arms. I cannot even begin to explain myself for I’ve tried so many times without a single splinter of hope. You’ve been my miracle, my angel. Your eyes so blue and heart so warm that I cannot and will not surrender this everlasting love. You make my knees go weak like a love song. When you speak my heart murmurs to the tone in your voice. But I ruined everything. I chose to push you aside when you wanted me most. And for what? Because he confused me? How stupid am I? Absolutely lost my mind, I have. Being around you feels like peace and being away feels like I am drowning in an endless abyss. I’ve only felt close to this once and that felt like a paper cut compared to the head pounding, swollen eyed feeling, with my chest being torn in half. All I can do is sit and wait like a hopeless by stander in your life because now there’s someone new and there’s really nothing I can do to change that. It’s not her fault. It’s ours. You blame me and I admit it’s very much my fault but you’ve done your part. I have more serious matters of my own to put my mind into. I don’t really have time to waste wallowing for something you don’t even give chance to. Although it burns like hell, I think about it more than I should and I try my hardest to come up with some ridiculous solution. For now, I’ll support you. I love you.
Stagnent Mind 