The kind of things I dream of at night..

So basically my family and I moved to a bigger house up north near like woods and surrounded by trees and shit. We had family from Mexico visiting and the house layout was pretty similar to where I live now. I was watching American horror story. I went to bed that night and I swore I was hearing things and objects were changing location. I remembered similar things occurring in the show so my parents said I was losing my mind and none of it was real. One night, my little cousin (male) was going to use the bathroom in my room but for some strange reason I was scared that something bad would happen as he did so. My dad, to make me feel better, began to video record what was happening from outside the bathroom. When we heard nothing, we entered the bathroom to no longer find the little boy cousin but a little girl, she was Asian. The little girl began to drown in the bathtub and I asked aloud “You drowned in here?” And suddenly the water drained away and my male cousin was back, my dad disbelieved anything he saw that night. The following night my mother attempted to put me to sleep and set my mind at ease because now I was afraid of my room. While lying in bed with me things started flying off my shelves and off the walls and my door swung open on its own. My mom was too scared to believe anything was happening and chose to ignore it. The following evening my mother told me were going out but she didn’t like my initial outfit and had me change into a nicer one. While I’m changing my father entered into my room, to the bathroom where it sounded as though he was washing his face. In complete confusion I walk over to the bathroom door, trying to put on my pants, he turns around. It is no longer my dad. It is a grown Asian man. Looking at me whilst holding a bar of soap and sponge in his hands, he gesture for me to strip. Quickly, I realize what has happened and I ask aloud “Your father drowned you?”. The Chinese man disappears and it’s my dad again. Quickly out of nowhere and Chinese woman and the same man appear to me and somehow show me into my mind what really occurred the tragic night. I see them holding their daughter and she’s fussing. They’d planned to drown her because they believed she supernatural and harmful to society. Quickly I see fangs. Their daughter is a vampire. She kills her parents and runs to the woods where she has been hiding for decades watching over the house her parents spirits protect. While the rest of my family left to some restaurant by what seems like the Hard Rock Casino, my aunt/cousin appears as some sort of werewolf. She kills the young Asian vampire. Johnny depp dressed as Capt. Jack Sparrow from pirates of the carribean tells me that vampires never win. And that’s how my dream ended.

Strength.

Some people define strength by the things a person can physically handle but what about the mental capabilities? What about when you can handle everyone else’s judgement and stand on your own? When the smile on your face is to please everyone else but you know it’s not real? When your heart is yearning for it but you let it go? Don’t tell me that’s not strength. In this world we are destined to go through things that will challenge our strengths, physical and mental. We are encouraged to stand tall and defeat our weaknesses but the pressure isn’t always enough. You meet this one person and you’re honestly into everything they represent. They give your days a sense of meaning and being with them is like finally getting to know yourself. They’re your ticket to happiness because you needed the extra push when you couldn’t do it yourself. You make a mistake… It’s a big one… In a flash, they don’t want you anymore. My heart is crumbling, my eyes are a reflection of an ocean before them. I’m in pain, it’s physical. No matter what’s going on in my life, my health, my environment,
I’ll miss you. You’ve been my angel in the darkness and the one person I could never be without. He’ll probably never read this but you all will. Take this to mind when you’re facing difficult decisions and situations that may seem impossible to overcome. Be your own strength and smile because even in weakness it’s a great way to show strength. I’m here for your thoughts, any inquiries to my email on about me page. Thank you for reading, hope you’re all having a great start to this new year. 😉